Release And Let Go

This morning during worship I felt small teardrops begin to form. I heard God say, "Release & let go. You're going to have to release all of those things that hinder you and move forward." Then he asked me to sit down as the tears began to stream and I just thought about where I've been, where I am and where I know God wants me to go. 

He went on to say, "You can't come here every Sunday and bring your problems and hurts to the altar and then pick them back up and take them with you. You can't keep carrying your past pain. Yes, some stuff hurt but you survived the divorce, you worked hard to get out of the bad mortgage, you did all you could to make sure Tyler was supported early to prevent communication problems, you made sure Alex graduated from college, you survived the stroke and when the doctor suggested an unbelievable diagnosis last month you told him absolutely no. You have been hurt unbelievably and in some cases immeasurably but you've learned to speak to your problems and you believe that God is going to bless you with good and perfect gifts but Arlinda those gifts can't get to you while you hold on to what happened in the past and you have to stop taking it out on people who had nothing to do with that hurt. Especially people that you know love and adore you." 

Release and let go.
It's already done.

Release and let go.
All things work together.

Release and let go.
God will perfect those things that concern you.

Release and let go.
Seek Him first and watch him add.

Release and let go.
He gave Jabez that which he requested. He'll do the same for you.

Release and let go.
If Jesus can turn water to wine, then he can turn your pain to praise, your hurt to a hallelujah, your tears to a testimony, he can use your disappointments as he moves you towards your destiny.

Hallelujah, you have won the victory 
Hallelujah, you have won it all for me

Death could not hold you down
You are the risen king
Seated in majesty 
You are the risen king

"But you have to let go first. You're like a little girl holding on to broken toys just because. Release and let go. It's the only way to move forward." 

I sat there honestly just trying to hold it together. But honestly I've been a mess lately, especially today and I so appreciate God coming to tell me that I have to loose those things from my grasp. I have to stop trying to control aspects of my life when I know God has a plan and when I think I'm loosing control realize that he already worked it out for me when he won the victory. Here's the part that's messed up, I know all of this and yet fear and doubt creeps in and rushes over me and then I'm more of a mess than before. 

I know I have to get from hurt to hallelujah. 

Release

and

Let

Go

And once I do. God, fill me up til I overflow. I want to run over. 

Today I'm grateful to every woman that hugged me, poured into me and made me laugh. I struggled with coming to church today but I promise it was the best place for me to be to feel loved on. I'm a work in progress and I know that I hurt someone unintentionally today and that hurts me because they have been nothing but awesome towards me. I honestly have to release and let go for myself and for others. 

Namaste