So.......... Anxious

So meet me at 11:30..... no, that's not the direction of this post. lol Though the word anxious did come to mind as I prepared to travel to Atlanta for my favorite Lauren's wedding.

 

The closer that it came time to travel the worse my nerves got. I got to thinking, "I have never driven this far by myself." I think it was on Thursday that God was like, "Remember when Alex had surgery and you had to take him back to West Virgina by seven in the morning and you turned around and came right back home?" Oh!!!!! That was ten total hours. Hmmmm.....

 

So on last Friday I got up and packed. Called the car rental place and ordered a Select Uber. Ooooohhhhhh! She fancy now. But this is how I knew everything was going to be alright, I get to the rental place and it's packed with people leaving and the agent says. "Arlinda, we upgraded you for free to a 2018 Ford Escape." I mean look at God. I hopped into the vehicle, headed home, packed the car and picked up Tyler from school.

 

I loved that the weather was amazing and my friend Enjoli was somewhere on I-75S too. Even with this, my little heart kept beating all crazy because I was doing something new. Something outside of my comfort zone. I couldn't wait until I got to the hotel. Everything was going well until I got downtown and Lisa, that's what I call the voice on MapQuest, informed me that she was going to cut 16 minutes off my trip by taking I-285. Mind you it's 6-8 lanes, inclusive of one I called the Jay-Z lane (HOV) and I-285 was all the way to the right. So I mosey on over with hundreds of other folk and out of nowhere Lisa says "Take I-75S via the left lane." Really? 

 

Soooooooo anxious. My little bity heart started pounding. My stomach hurt. My tooth is aching because I don't know how to control the air blowing on my broken molar. Inside I'm a mess but I can't show it to my child because I didn't want to worry him. Lisa said she was taking off 16 minutes but added like an hour.

 

Eventually we get to the room and my body began to calm down. I read my Bible app and it kind of helped. I knew I had to ride back the same way I came but I had to get my self together for the real reason I had traveled, to see two beautiful souls become one. And the wedding was everything beautiful.

 

On Sunday as I thought about leaving, I received a text from a friend. He sent me a link of a recording on Abraham and faith. Oh, yes I needed that. I needed to know that this hotel was not my home and that I was just passing through. My faith was small coming into town but when I arrived home I was like, "Oh, I can drive anywhere now."

 

I guess in essence God showed me that I can do those things that I think I cannot.