For weeks, maybe months, I have had a lot on my mind. Each day I try to find balance in what I need to do for me, for my sons, for my home, for my students, for my family, for my church, and for my friends. Whew!!!! It can all be too much. I could say that it's a lot for a single parent, but to be honest if I was in a relationship he would just be added to the list of "what I need to do for". So I will just say that it's a lot period.
One of my favorite scriptures puts it all in perspective for me. Luke 12:48 (New International Version) tells us
48 But the one who does not know and does things deserving punishment will be beaten with few blows. From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.
God has given me so much not just over the years but period. What I am most thankful for is having a mother who taught and continues to teach me daily to pray without ceasing. I am probably one of the most hopeful people I know. I remember being a little girl and an older cousin would always tell me to stop believing in the "happy ending". Although she is gone on to glory I have never ever forgotten that she said that to me.
But you know what? I believe in the "happy ending" because my bible tells me that every good and perfect gift comes from heaven. My bible tells me that all things are working together for my good. My bible tells me that I will reap if I faint not. In the face of adversity I am telling the enemy that I am not fainting. That I will continue to press for all of the good things that God has in store for me.
More so than ever I am realizing that I was born to do great things for God. I was born to worship God. I was born to have faith in God. If my grandmothers had and have the faith and praised God. If my aunts have the faith and praise God. If my mother has the faith and praises God. Then it is has fallen on me to have the faith and to praise Him. Again I go back to the scripture - to whom much is given, much is required.
This wasn't even the direction of this blog. It just went it's own way. See, I believe that God is doing something incredible in my life, and in my sons lives, that eyes have not seen and ears have not heard. I believe that God is working somethings out for our good. I wish my cousin was here to see me live out the "happy ending". It's coming to pass. God said it and that's enough for me.