Thursday, August 12, 2010

Wrapped Up

Tonight I had a conversation with my son. I was telling him that going into 41 this year I am beginning to define and develop me further. As a teenager there were so many weird things about me. I liked ripped jeans, natural hair, bright make-up and sarongs. I can think back to those days and and my appearance not being socially acceptable to those closest to me. So I kept it "normal" whatever that was.

Now, I feel a sense of freedom within me. So I rock the wet and wavy hair style because I like it and it feels good to show that extension of me. I pick vibrant colors for my eyes because that's what I like. I'm not trying to be cute...I am already that. Hello!!!!! Those things, make-up and hair are just how I express me.

The sarong thing is a whole nother issue. lol. As a little girl I always loved beautiful blankets and being wrapped up in sheets. It's one of those things that is hard to explain but it feels so good. In 2004 I bought my first two sarongs and I was like a kid at Christmas. I would just wrap them around me and sit around the house at total peace. Years later I have several sarongs and sometimes as soon as I hit the door I go to my closet and pick out two, they don't have to match (that doesn't matter) and I wrap them up and tie them  around me. Here lately you may even see me outside with them on. The warmth of the sun on my skin soothes me.

I just love that feeling of existing in my own comfort. I feel so beautiful when I rub my hands through my "own" hair and hug myself and feel "my" skin. Ahhhhh! It's taken some courage. Generally when people come over I will change to look "normal"! I will hurry to put on a t-shirt or something similar. At those points my skin is aching to be free. So now I define my own "normal"......Most days at home I am wrapped up and loving every moment of it.

Erykah Badu - Other Side of the Game

In this video you will see Erykah wrapping up at various points in the video. Love it!!!

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