Solitude

Well today is finally here and I am so happy. My weekend was so weird. I had plans for the entire weekend. There were only three things, that were a part of the original plan, that actually came to pass. At first I began to get a little frustrated but I could hear God clearly speak to me. He said "See it all the way through."

Many months ago I began a journey, one of self-reflection and one that I had to take on my own. It was hard distancing myself from people who were close to me but it was something I had to do. I had to workout somethings within myself. I didn't want this day to come and I take what I was dealing with into that moment. Actually after today there are going to be some major changes in how I operate.

For me to go forward I have to not only cut off the dead parts but I have to throw them away so that they can never be revisited. With those experiences I will see if a similar experience is trying to appear in my life and get rid of it before it begins to grow in my life. I am covering it all, finances, spirituality, relationships, friendships, you name it.

So for many months I have been quiet so that I can receive clear direction for Him. During this time our women's bible study has been studying Esther...It's Tough Being a Woman. That study has been one of the greatest things to happen to me this year. Did you know you were created for such a time as this? I now know that.

Today He took me to familiar scripture. Forgetting those things that are behind me.... I am now looking for what is ahead. I know to expect and want the best life has to offer.

That has not always been the case with me but during these many months of solitude I have realized that I am beautiful and blessed beyond measure. As my mother said to me recently, "I am so glad things are as well as they are with you." You know what mommy? Me too.

Listening to Him More


Lindar