The Fight To Find Myself

    It was late August of this year when social media had a lot of posts about this pastor being let go of a church in Florida. I had no idea who Pastor Joel Tudman was. What I discovered was that so many people were upset about him being let go.  Many were wondering what happened. Why did he get let go from the church that he was invited to lead?

    I began to research because I think that's what some people do instinctively. Did he do something wrong? What happened? I couldn't find anything so I started following Pastor Tudman on social media, actually I followed him on Instagram on August 30th. I started reading. more about him.

    I saw that at some point he was a part of Bishop T.D. Jakes' church in Texas and that he was a powerful speaker. Sometime later, I followed his newly launched church, Believer's City on Instagram. One Tuesday I logged on to their Bible Study and I began to take notes and think that maybe this was something that I needed. In October Believer's City had their first service and I was ready with my notebook to take notes so that I could study through them later.

    I have a couple of takeaways from the experience of discovering believer City Church. 

1. I had not heard of Pastor Tudman until he was let go from his previous church. 
2. Prior to watching one of his services I had a conversation with another pastor. They were sharing with me that I would know the voice that I was being called to. (In order to know a voice, you have to be able to hear it right?)

     In October of last year, I had a really bad ear infection that led me to being admitted to ICU for about 2 weeks, with an overall hospital stay of little over a month. One particular Sunday I'm listening to Pastor Tudman and as I'm taking my notes, I feel this cool breeze in the ear that had been infected. Tears immediately began to fall. I had been through so much and I didn't feel like I had a place to cry out until this service.

    In that moment I knew that I needed to read his book, to log on for Bible Study and Sunday Service and to be connected to Believer's City Church. 

    Within the past year I've been healing from an acute illness, my son is playing his freshman year of college basketball after an injury, I lost my father in the Spring and honestly my identity has shifted. Possibly for me this whole experience led me to Pastor Tudman's book for the fight to find myself because I've been searching and it has been a difficult landscape to navigate. I'm grateful for Pastor Tudman, for Believer's City Church and I'm grateful for his book The Fight To Find Yourself - Moving From Uncertain to Unstoppable because right when I needed a prophetic voice, Pastor Tudman was let go to build a new thing.