I Just Want To Run From It

We often teach that if you are struggling through something 

That is a good thing

Ummm….. I really don’t want to hear that right now

I just want to run from it

Though running from it won’t aid me in growing through it

But running from it will help me avoid

Rejection

Coming out of my comfort zone, even if it’s not too comfy right now

Avoid

That feeling that sometimes creeps in of not being good enough

Even when I know I am more than enough

 I really want to run away through some lavish lavender fields

To a beautiful cottage by a lake

Like in the storybook I read in my youth

But it’s not a storybook

And I don’t know where any cottages are

Let alone a lake

And the lavender fields have bloomed and been sold

So where do I run to?

Do I run?

Should I run?

It could all be so simple

But it’s not because

I have learned that if you don’t go through your experiences 

And get the lesson

You end up repeating the lesson until

You stop running

And simply allow the lesson to unfold

The most interesting thing about this lesson 

It’s patient with me

It teaches me constantly

It encompasses me with a strength that’s protective

It guides me

It supports me

Yet, I want to run from it

Because

There’s this theory that if I run

Disappointment will never have a chance to set in