Fit For A Cause
I have been single for several years and I have not really thought about seeing anyone in particular. Though in the past few months I have thought that if "he" exists he has to be fit on so many levels. Inclusive of mentally, spiritually, physically, financially and psychologically. If that is the direction that I'm going he has to be going there also. If I take an inventory of men that I have dated or have been in a relationship with not one, not even the one I married, can I pick up the phone and say "I need" or "The boys need" and they respond.
You know why? Because I wasn't fit for a cause when I entered into those relationships. I wasn't trying to get the weight off, spiritually or physically. If they accepted me in my present state then I was cool with it never seeing a bigger picture or the bold bottom line that would show me God's bigger plan for my life. So I've been hurt. I've been rejected. I've been left. Each experience chipping away at the beautiful woman that so many family members had vested in.
Now being single has been advantageous to me over the past 3 years. I've had this time to really read His word and reflect on past hurts and past pains. God never wanted that for me. Only I for myself. Now I hear God clearly when He speaks to me that if I enter into a relationship it will be like nothing I have ever experienced before. God wants my family and me covered by a man who is already a believer, already a worshipper and one who I don't have to drag into His presence.
Looking back at my list of qualifications for a mate, God was never at the top of the list. My mate simply had to be tall, dark and we have similar interests. Well I got that several times and got left several times. But now....that's all changed. If I decide to date again, I'm in a different space and God has set me apart for such a time as this. He's called for me to go forth with His word and to do incredible things for Him. I'm getting fit for a cause. I preparing for those things that eyes have not seen and ears have not heard.
Speaking those things that are not as though they are
Lindar
Been A Minute
It’s been almost a month since my last post. I must say that the death of Heavy D has been a bit difficult for me. I think back to when Hev first came out as an artist I was ending my high school years. His music has been with me through college, having children, and growing through life. Not to mention his reported illness mirrors when my brother was sick awhile back and scared the daylights out of everyone.
I’ve talked to my brother several times over the past few weeks and I hear the concern in his voice when he says about Hev having pneumonia, “I had the same thing.” My response, in my mind, was, “Yeah, I know.” Life is precious and you truly never know when your time is coming. Hopefully you are doing your very best to follow your dreams and seek God’s purpose for your life. At the end of the day that’s truly the most important thing.
As the year winds down our church is ending it’s P90X, to read the Bible in 90 days. I started in October and stopped in October. I picked up again in November and decided to finish strong. Now I’m reading two or three assignments a day because I want to be in the number of finishers on December 31. Reading through the entire Bible is absolutely amazing for me right now. God is speaking, healing and strengthening me for whatever is next in my life.
In my last post I wrote about how I had always dreamed of Hev performing one year for my birthday and to be truthful I never reached for that goal and that moment is lost. As I grow in my faith and breakout of this shell of low or no expectations I pray that I reach for incredible opportunities and not lose too many more memorable moments.
Be Blessed
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